I turn the big "3-0" today. Personally, it is not really a big deal but I still recall how I perceived being 30 as being so old when I was in my teenage years. So today, I get to experience it myself and I do not feel as old as I thought I would feel. Minus the being-tired- all the time, body aches, slow metabolism & low stamina, I think I still feel young (errr..if that makes any sense at all)

Anyway, I am happy how my life turned out so far especially now that I have my little baby boy with me and knowing what a loving husband and family I have. I am in a great position!

So all to the 30s' out there, yell "Hell ya' I am 30 and I am proud of it!!".

So is 30 is the new 20??? I doubt so, but at times I do feel like I am in my teens and it feels great!

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As I was driving home from work, which took me 1.5 hours through the jam today , I seriously thought about this. What are the advantages if I could work from home?

1. No JAM means less stress
2. Save on petrol and toll
3. Save on car maintenance
4. Less hazardous – sometimes I am tempted to doze off when I am tired
5. Better health – physically and mentally
6. More time with family
7. More comfort
8. It can be more effective
9. Rest when needed – less MC
10. No worries on being late for work – I was late an hour yesterday because of the rain
11. Maximization of time for other “important” things like exercise etc

I am sure there are many more reasons I thought of when I was driving..but I am just too tired out now to even re-think those reasons.

Sigh..I just wish one day (when I am still alive), companies in Malaysia will implement this. Perhaps work from home 3 out of 5 working days and come in to the office for the rest of the working days. This way, you also would not lose touch with the “outside world”.

What is life when you spend most of your life in this misery? Why want to get married when 5 out of 7 days you are just tired together? Why have children when you cannot spend time watching them grow? Why have homes when you aren’t maximizing your time in it? Why buy that comfortable sofa when all you need is your bed?

Have you ever experienced a BLANK moment? I am actually in a situation where these questions occasionally pop out:-

“What have I done today? What have I done for the past week? What have I done for the past month?”…and the ultimate…

“What is life?”

Everything for me now is a bit of a blur. At times I cannot even recall what happened or what I ate yesterday. Everything seems too much like a timetable to me or a little too fake. Hmmm…am thinking of how to spice my life up now.

I have a friend whose mum passed away yesterday morning. Her mum was only 50+. Worst thing was it happened during her family trip overseas (after a very long time of not having one) and to top it all, it happened on the 2nd day of CNY. Normally they will not travel during CNY because her parents insisted they stay in Malaysia. This year though, they decided to change the tradition of staying in Malaysia because they could not celebrate CNY as her grandmother passed away not too long ago.

Her mum was a healthy lady. She had headache spells in the hotel and collapse into unconsciousness. Doctor said she had stroke and brain hemorrhage. Was in the hospital the whole of CNY when she finally passed away. It is a SAD SAD moment as she was so close to her mum. I have never met her mum but I recalled her mum commented that I was so cute like a little girl after seeing my photo and even wanted my friend to introduce me to her cousin. I even joked saying to my friend "Ask your mum whether she wants a god-daughter or not since she seems so fond of me". And now, I will never have the chance to meet this person.

Life is so short and unpredictable. Love the ones you have now with all your heart so you would not have any regrets when one leaves you. It is afterall the Cycle of Life.

Lets pray for her and her family to be able to go through these harsh times

Every morning after 40minutes of driving, I usually reach work half hour before my work starts. I have a principal that I would not start work before my working hours. So, I will normally browse through the newspaper for the main news (to come up with topics late in the day when there are no more topics to talk about..haha). Then I will go online to check my mails and do some face-booking. When the clock strikes 09.00, I shut down all unrelated sites and start my work.

The above sounds all too normal I guess. But after a few minutes pass, time just seems to go in slow motion. A minute feels more like 15 minutes for me. This is when I start wishing it was my lunch break. Then I can have a rest, have lunch and chit chat with colleague (s). After my lunch break, it gets worst. It feels like I am in another world wondering what am I doing sitting down in this stupid cubicle and wondering when 6pm will arrive. After the dreadful 4 hours which feels more like eternity, 6pm arrives, and I will be too shy to leave because everyone else still seems so busy with their work. By 6.05-6.10pm, I will say to myself, "what the heck! Just go home la"...haha... Day in and day out this is my routine.

I just feel zombi-fied during my 8 hrs of work and feel so much more refreshed half hour after I have reached home. But most of the time, I would just be too tired to do anything for those measly hours I have before I sleep. Is it worth it?