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I started my fitness journey on May 2015. It was a roller coaster since then. However, I have gained these few habits in my life now...
1) Fitness is part of my life...can't seem to live without exercising for long
2) Learned how to eat healthier
3) Looking at my body in the mirror (errrr....not such a positive habit...hehehe)

However, I have not been able to be consistent on my exercises and also grew weaker after a few months of being too busy or falling sick (again).

So I must remind myself this

What I need to do now is to get my ass up and start my exercise regime back again. Planning to learn some yoga by a professional while I continue to do my walks or run on my treadmill.

Wish me luck!
I have come to a conclusion about myself (or rather from people around me).

People seems to indicate this to me

 Feels like all these while the problem has always been me. So now I feel like this...

But I have no idea how to do it because everytime I try to change my mindset, it backfires on me. But if I do not change, I feel that I will be pushing more and more people away especially to my love ones. Ohhh, why am I ME? I guess the phrase "Just be Yourself" is just not for me.

I have never been good at handling with squabbles even if it does not involves me directly. I recall these few situations very clearly:-

1.       When I was just in primary school, my god-father came home drunk and picked some verbal fights with my god-siblings. I ran into the room and cried and kept telling one of my god-sister to get my god-father to stop quarrelling

2.       When I was in early secondary school, my dad and brother had an argument at the dining table. I could not stand it and went into my room and cried.

It seems like the situation hasn’t change much (I just noticed this connection). I just could not stand my kids arguing/squabbling with each other. It makes my whole body so uncomfortable. Feels like I cannot breathe. Feels like my heart is not mine. Feels like my head is going to blow. I feel like going into my room and cry.
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